Xerxes

Uncle Sam needs you!

2011-01-31T22:50:00.000-08:00

I wonder why US always back stabs his close allies. I have personally witnessed Shah, Saddam, Musharaf, Mubarak, you just name it, used to be his close ally once. But afterwards they crushed to their knees for the guilt of rising glass with him.
What will happen to his dear child, Israel? I think that would be the worst of them all,...

The Great Gig In The Sky

2011-01-04T22:00:00.000-08:00

Friends,
I want you to find a nice calm place. Then turn on your ipod and listen to this music loud.
Then you'd find out what happened to me last night, when I was high again,...
Embrace the power of music when she screams like a thunder.

The Great Gig In The Sky
by Pink Floyd
Album: The Dark Side of the Moon

"And I am not frightened of dying, any time will do, I
Don't mind. Why should I be frightened of dying?
There's no reason for it, you've gotta go sometime."
"I never said I was frightened of dying."

Rubik's cube

2011-01-03T01:39:00.000-08:00

Rubik showed me a problem will always be solved, without any exception.

One of my best,...

2011-01-02T23:06:00.000-08:00

Please listen to this music with professional headphones.
Thanks to technology as we used to get high listening bad quality music more than 20 years ago but now we have what we deserve.

Family Tree
by: Megadeth
Album: Youthanasia

Music by Mustaine, Ellefson, Menza
Lyrics by Mustaine

Forgotten things remembered
The tigers eat their young
The body stayed but inside the head
The mind was on the run
A conspiracy of silence
The only way out of pain
Is turn around, run through it man
Too wet to come in from the rain,
Tell them...

I know they were doing it to you
But don't try doing it to me

Let me show you, how I love you
It's our secret, you and me
Let me show you how I love you
But keep it in the family tree
The secret of the family tree

When you hear them saying "trust me"
Don't wait to see what's next
Thrown to the wolves
Forever trusting
Raised in a form of living hell
Sing a one note song of rage
Live and die within your heart
So beware in the shadows

Your family tree waits in the dark
I say...

Let me show you, how I love you
It's our secret, you and me
Let me show you how I love you
But keep it in the family tree

Let me show you, how I love you
It's our secret, you and me
Let me show you how I love you
The secret of the family tree

Angel eyes,...

2011-01-01T01:22:00.000-08:00

Certainly these are angels eyes.

I'm in love with your eyes Clarice.

Social security!

2010-10-23T04:42:00.000-07:00

I was thinking why the word security resembles some fancy luxurious meaning in my country.
If you do not have security, you cannot even pee in a public toilet. You are standing there trying to focus but you cannot succeed. Why? Because you are not familiar with the environment, and as a result you do not feel secured. So why people look at each other in a way that everybody has come out of home to fight? Why you do not trust EVERYONE? What happened to the country?
Within a couple of weeks I have witnessed 2 arm robberies, first my mom was victim, then my colleague was nearly stabbed by a machette for what he had taken out of bank. This society is going to experience the worst age of wild wild west because of having NO SECURITY!
Those who say that we are living in a completely secured country, may be right in some extent but they are deliberetely abusing the security itself. They pay huge amount of money for their own security and they don't want this society to be secured at all.
Where there is no security there is no investment, no job, no future, no life. What else you need to call a society primitive?
What is going to happen next?

Some say the end is near.
Some say we'll see armageddon soon.
I certainly hope we will.
I sure could use a vacation from thisBullshit three ring circus sideshow of Freaks

I'm back!

2010-10-17T06:44:00.000-07:00

Money gets back.
I'm all right jack.
Keep your hands away from my stack!

THE DEAD FATHER

2009-11-14T04:12:00.000-08:00

Friends,
After a quite long time of approx 7 months I started to write something but this time it is no joke. Nor a piece of garbage I usually write.
It is a very beautiful piece of literature I read recently in one of my favorite books.
The passage goes:

But have you noticed the slight curl at the end of Sam II’s mouth, when he looks at you? It means that he didn’t want you to name him Sam II, for one thing, and for two other thing, it means that he has a sawed-off in his left pant leg, and a baling hook in his right pant leg, and is ready to kill you with either of them, given the opportunity. The father is taken aback. What he usually says, in such a confrontation, is “ I changed your diapers for you, little snot” This is not the right thing to say. First, it is not true (mothers change nine diapers out of ten), and second, it instantly reminds Sam II of what he is mad about. He is mad about being small when you were big, but no, that’s not it, he is mad about being helpless when you were powerful, but no, not that either, he is mad about being contingent when you were necessary, not quite it, he is insane because when he loved you, you didn’t notice.

DONALD BARTHELEME,
THE DEAD FATHER

You cannot imagine how I shocked when I read this.

My shortest phone discussion ever!

2009-03-16T10:43:00.000-07:00

Friends,
After a shameful absence of 3 months!!, I'm an old fart!!, I started to write something stupid.
Today i had the shortest phone discussion in my whole life!
With whom? Who do you imagine? You're right dude, That was my dear "Wife"!!!
I called. Around noon.
- me: Alo?
- She: Yes?
- When?
- 1700
-Bye.
- No reply
End.
3 words!
I said: Hi Honey, Who are you? Is everything Alright? How's baby? do you have enough money? You need anything? just name it,... When do I have to pick you up?
And she said: Honey :)) "How stupid!" You okay? How was lunch? Is everything all right in the office? You don't have a bad hair day!!! do you?? !!!! "Amazing funny stuff!!" Pick us up at 5 in the evening. Love you! Bye!!!
And why you think that we had a conversation like that?
Because she messed with me last night!

Me and my toys.

2008-12-02T08:27:00.000-08:00

Me and my toys.

Where she stands!

2008-12-02T08:08:00.000-08:00

21 days before her 8th birthday on 26.12.2008.
She painted her piece of art a year and half ago.
I want to register it here forever, maybe she will thank me when she reads it with her eyes, many years later, when she is a beautiful young lady.
That's my mobile phone's picture.

She won!

2008-12-02T05:32:00.000-08:00

In my whole family, there have been only 2 people who successfully made it to gold medal.
My brother who achieved a couple of gold medals in Basketball and my little daughter who could achieve a gold medal for her painting in the 5th international children's art competition held by Iranian Center for the Cultural and Artistic Creations.
I hope both of you continue success as you made me and all of my family proud.
I love you.

She's got a smile that it seems to me
Reminds me of childhood memories
Where everything
Was as fresh as the bright blue sky
Now and then when I see her face
She takes me away to that
special place
And if I stared too long
I'd probably break down and cry

Sweet child o' mine
Sweet love of mine

Where I'm standing

2008-10-08T10:45:00.000-07:00

This is where I'm standing guys:

My warning meant nothing.
You're dancing in quicksand.
Why don't you watch where you're wandering?
Why don't you watch where you're stumbling?
(You're wading knee deep and going in. 2x)
This bog is thick and easy to get lost in
cause you're a stupid, belligerent fucker.
This bog is thick and easy to get lost in
cause you're a dumb ass, belligerent fucker.
I hope it sucks you down.
(Doownnn 3x)

My warning meant nothing.
You're dancing in quicksand.
Why don't you watch where you're wandering?
Why don't you watch where you're stumbling?
You're wading knee deep and going in,
and you may never come back again.
This bog is thick and easy to get lost in
cause you're a stupid, belligerent fucker.
This bog is thick and easy to get lost in
cause you're a dumb ass, belligerent fucker.
I hope it sucks you down!

My warning meant nothing,
You're dancing in quicksand.
Why don't you watch where you're wandering?
Why don't you watch where you're stumbling?
You're wading knee deep and going in,
and you may never come back again.
This bog is thick and easy to get lost in
cause you're a stupid, belligerent fucker.
This bog is thick and easy to get lost in
cause you're a dumb ass, belligerent fucker.
I hope it suck, I hope it suck,
I hope it sucks you fucker,
I hope it suck, I hope it suck,
I hope it sucks you down!

Wander in and wandering.
No one even invited you in.
But still you stumble in,
suffocate, so suffocate,
why don't you geeeeet awayyyy?
Wander in and wandering.
No one even invited you in.
But still you stumble in,
suffocate, so suffocate,
why don't you geeeeeet oooout while you can?

No one told you to coooooooooooooome!

My warning meant nothing,
You're dancing in quicksand
Why don't you watch where you're wandering?
Why don't you watch where you're stumbling?
You're wading knee deep and going in,
and you may never come back again.
This bog is thick and easy to get lost in
cause you're a stupid, belligerent fucker.
This bog is thick and easy to get lost in
cause you're a dumb ass, belligerent fucker.
I hope it suck, I hope it suck,
I hope it sucks you fucker,
I hope it suck, I hope it suck,
I hope it sucks you......

Swamp song - Undertow 1993

Why Sex, Smoke and Scream?

2008-09-27T06:52:00.000-07:00

Sex, because you're out of imagination at the moment. It really freezes your brain.
Sex, because you're reaching out to a new generation.
Sex, because of your lust for immortality.
Sex, because you need to be adored.

Smoke, because you can see a tiny life circle between your fingers.
You give birth and very soon you kill.
Smoke, is a sign of burning and hunger inside.
Smoke is a friend in need.

Scream, nobody care's about what you are trying so hard to imply.
Scream, people appreciate if you raise your voice.
Scream, for your rights.
Scream, for what you have lost.
Scream, for what you desire.

My daughter's first day in school

2008-09-23T06:01:00.001-07:00

She went to school today. The first grade. I took a picture when she was just about to leave the door with a beautiful smile. Future is calling you my love, keep smiling.

She was going to dive into a world of mystery. I can hardly remember the day I attended in the classroom for the first time but I can still remember the sweet taste of the days when I was in the primary school. When everything and everybody was available all around and happiness was a part of our lives.

The sad question which crossed my mind was: Would I be alive to see her graduated?
Who knows?

I hope she will be strong enough to deal with this jungle we call society.

From earth to Almighty Lord

2008-09-21T07:28:00.000-07:00

This is one of the hardest poems which I used to work on it so hard to translate it to English when I was in university:

From earth to Almighty Lord

Died from object and grow as plant
Died from plant and grow as species
Died from species and grow as human
How can I be afraid, when I was apart from death?

The next attack will die as a human
Then I will grow angels feathers
Again I will be flying above angels
Will become whatever that can not be fantasized

So will become nothing like harp
Will murmur: the return is to Lord

Mowlana

Life - Now and then

2008-09-17T07:36:00.000-07:00

When I take a look at my past I wonder how stupid time passed by and I grew old like this. Back in the 30 years ago, I remember a lot of changes was going on and I could not understand how. The revolution, I used to look at it like a combat game like most of young boys playing with their gun toys, while people were really dying. The harsh scene that I still can not forget was a guy shooting freely with a AK47 2 meters away from me in the middle of our classroom in Alborz high school. He was shooting out of the window to a crowd out there in the street. I think I was 10-11 years old.
EVERYTHING CHANGED!
I became someone else!
Now my daughter is going to school tomorrow!
I still can not understand how long passed and how long is ahead.
What if death is close enough the time I passed and I look into it this stupid?

Enjoy:
Bottom- Undertow

My compassion is broken now.
My will is eroded now,
and my desire is broken now
and it makes me feel ugly.
I'm on my knees and burning.
My piss and moans are the fuel that,
set my head on fire.
So smell my soul is burning.
I'm broken, looking up to see the enemy.
And I have swallowed the poison you feed me...
but I survive on it, and it leaves me
guilt, fed,
hatred fed,
weakness fed..
and it makes me feel ugly.
On my knees and burning.
My piss and moans are the fuel that
set my head on fire.
I'm dead insiiiiiiiiiiiiide!

(Shiiit aadds up 3x)
Shit adds up at the bottooom...

-Henry Rollins: If I let you, you would make me destroy myself. But in order to survive you, I must first survive myself. I can sink no further and I cannot forgive you. There's no choice but to confront you, to engage you, to erase you. I've gone to great lengths to expand my threshold of pain. I will use my mistakes against you. There's no other choice. Shameless now. Nameless now. Nothing now. No one now. But my soul must be iron cause my fear is naked. I'm naked and fearless.-
And my fear is nakeeeeeeeeed!

(Deead iinsiide. 4x)
Neeeedless now,
shaaameless now,
noooothing now,
nooo one now.
(Shit adds up 4x)
You see me naaaaked now,
feeeearless now,
naaaaked now,
feeeeearless now.
You see... shit adds up.
Shit adds, shit adds, shit adds up.
It leaves me (deeead iinsiide 3x),
dead, insiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiide!

Hatred keeps me alive,
ugliness keeps me alive,
weakness keeps me alive,
guilt keeps me alive
at the bottoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooom!

I'm dead without TOOL!

About Xerxes

2008-09-17T07:17:00.000-07:00

Xerxes was son of Darius the Great and Atossa, the daughter of Cyrus the Great. After his accession in October 485 BC, he suppressed the revolts in Egypt and Babylon that had broken out the year before and appointed his brother Achaemenes as governor or satrap over Egypt (Old Persian: khshathrapavan). In 484 BC, he took away from Babylon the golden statue of Bel (Marduk, Merodach), the hands of which the rightful king of Babylon had to take a hold of on the first day of each year, and killed the priest who tried to get in his way. Therefore Xerxes does not bear the title of King in the Babylonian documents dated from his reign, but King of Persia and Media or simply King of countries (i.e. of the world). This proceeding led to two rebellions, probably in 484 BC and 479 BC.

Life - Another aspect

2008-09-17T06:03:00.000-07:00

You think that this life worth's living it so hard like this?
In my opinion you're sadly mistaken.

This body. this body holding me. be my reminder here that I am not alone in
This body, this body holding me, feeling eternal all this pain is an illusion.

Alive

Life sux without sex, smoke and scream

2008-09-16T08:04:00.000-07:00

That's not me. The one inside me. The one who you can not see. Maybe the filthier.
The one who is trying to burst out all the day but simply can not because it was incarcerated. And when is he free? When in the fig front, smoked nice weed and scream for pleasure.

Enjoy:

I know you well.
you are a part of me.
I know you better than I know myself.
I know you best,
better than anyone.
I know you better than I know myself.

You are a part of me.

You are just a part of me,
You are just a part of me,
You are just a part of me,
You are just a part of me.

Give it up

You don't speak.
You don't judge.
You can't leave.
You can't hurt me.
You're just here for me to use.

I know you well.
you are a part of me.
I know you better than I know myself.
I know you best,
better than anyone.
I know you better than I know myself.

I know you well,
better than one might think.
I know you better than I know myself.

I know you well.
you are a part of me.
I know you best,
better than anyone.
I know you well,
you are a part of me.
I know you best,
better than one might think.

It's time for you
to make a sacrifice.
It's time to die a little.
Give it up.

I know you best,
better than anyone.
I know you better than I know myself.

A part of me.